The LORD is my Shepherd; I shall not want.
He MAKES ME lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters.
He restores my soul. (Psalm 23: 1-3a)
This is my current theme. A year and a half ago, our house burned down…and we started over. Simple.
In the last year, much has changed:
Our ministry in Nepal shifted; will we return? No answer.
I burned out in my job; will I work in medicine again? No answer.
We attempted two different adoption situations: those children were not ours to raise; will we adopt? No answer.
We have very few answers. Dave and I have found time recently to walk and pray on a daily basis. This is a pure gift. We do not know where we are going, but we do sense that God has a very specific destination in mind. We do not know what it is; our small minds struggle to discern God’s plan. Still PEACE rests upon our souls.
We are not skilled at resting. Yet, it seems that God has ordained a rest for us. Particularly Kimberly: I feel that He has MADE ME lie down in green pastures. I am accepting this as a gift. And yet, I find it a discipline to be learned. I WAIT upon the LORD…for no particular thing or plan, just the small still voice of direction whenever He deems that I should get up from this place where I perceive Him restoring my soul.
For those who don’t know, I was burning out at my job…I was developing physical symptoms that were concerning... and now I am not working. I was encouraged to seek counsel and a medical evaluation. So far, the medical tests do not reveal any particular disorder or illness. I believe I simply became worn out beyond my ability to carry on; I needed rest. I am finding that rest, and my symptoms are resolving. I will continue with counsel, seeking to better understand why I sometimes drive myself so hard.
Some things have remained the same: I still live with five great guys: one is a man….the four others are in various stages of becoming men. There is so much to discuss and to explore at this stage of life, with three teenagers in the house. It is a blessing to have time to appreciate this stage of life.
So, now you know…